Update.

I've been out of touch for a bit. I've been offline from MSN since December, my normal Email account(Which I think won't accept new messages while it's offline for now - text me if you want the new address) has around 1,200 unread messages, my old website is offline for now aswell, and I'm not using my phone much.

The website and email bit is because I need to renew my subscription to the service I had with those services.

The other stuff....well, I've been distracted a lot with Jac's dog, Murphy, who has been suffering convulsive fits since November, and it's heartbreaking to see, and I've usually been present with him when he's suffered the fits we know about. It's been a fair share of agony watching over him, getting frightened every time he moves, in case he's about to suffer another. And because we don't know why he's suffering the fits, we don't know how serious this is. It could, quite frankly, be life-threatening. The most popular theory seems to be epilepsy, which can be treated with medication that prevents the fits, but it's not guaranteed to be successful.

Then, last week, my Gran died. My Mother's Mother, to be specific. I didn't really like her that much, and I liked her even less as her mind went increasingly awry over the last few years. So much so, that even with a small cluster of family members left that I even see, never mind speak to, I haven't seen her in the last four years, except for Christmas things where her tantrums would be the most noteworthy thing.

So I didn't like her. But, this is pretty much the first time someone this close to me has died. All three of my remaining Grandparents are still alive and reasonably well, as are my parents. There's been around three times I can think of that death has landed quite so close to me. One was a guy I knew in 6th form, who died in the shower in his new uni dorm, not long after 6th form had ended. Then there were my two dogs, which hit me like a truck when they happened. Apart from that, I mean I've suffered loss in my life, including some utterly heartbreaking losses, but no other deaths. So for this to happen.....it's hit me. Not hard, but weird. I feel very much in turmoil inside, and I feel loss, but oddly I don't miss her. This may well be one of those things which makes you, the reader, think "That's an awful thing to say". Well, whatever. I'm just writing this up because I don't feel much like saying what I'm typing.

On the plus side I have a PS3 now, so there's stuff to keep me occupied at the moment. Fallout 3 is awesome.

I hope you, the individual who came here today, are well. And be true to yourself. Now if you'll excuse me, I have some crisps with my name on them, and it took a lot to convince Jac to engrave my name on with food colouring, so if I don't eat them soon, she'll kill me.